iCanSeeClearlyNow

My `Homework` assignment this week is to write down everything I do in a day. lol... well now seriously, I`ve decided I don`t want to `do`anything!! I want to play. I want to swim and ride in the boat and float around. I want to hear my kids giggle, and jump right in! I want to feel the sun on my face, to walk on a dock ... i want to feel the sand in my toes, to open a beer, to sit by the campfire and throw on a hoodie because the day was so good I start to feel a chill. To take pictures of these people I love so much... so that when they grow at the speed of light, I can look back .. and smile:)

My daughter is officially in Love with Justin Bieber.
I knew one day it would happen, she would have that special litttle "trip" in her voice. Who'd have thunk it would be JB... on a cold friggin day in February... somebody stop the clock. I loved it when she was in love with Swiper from Dora the explorer... but seriously. This is NOT happening.... well Wednesday is LLLLoooooovve day... happpy Love day...

Oh the things to write about...

I think this blogging thing would be easier if  I could perhaps decide what to write about.. I think I will make a schedule, like on Monday I write about things that Bug me, and on Tuesday maybe things that make me Happy... Wednesday I think would be Love day... (don't go askin me why now:) ... On Thursdays, I should write about Inspiration... and on Fridays, I think it will be Children... on Saturday it will be the Past and the Future... and Sundays will be silent.

Now see that was easy.  I have always wanted some structure... now I have found it. So here we go.. it's Tuesday.  What makes me happy?  ... well let's think about that now:)

I have been reading a book called "The Happiness Project" - By Gretchen Rubin.  So far the things that are sticking the most, are the little things.. like destroy clutter in your life... it makes clutter in your head. No kidding...   And she took a year off of her life to figure it out.(thanks Gretchen)... how to be Happier that is... and she broke it down into themes (kinda like I did.. daily break-it-down) not!... lol, but she's the expert, and I am the newbie.

Anyways... it, among 4000 other things have given me great pause over the last while... on what really makes me happy.  So for now, I will try to keep it simple.

I don't remember.  Seriously, as terrifying as that may sound, I don't remember.  It's like I hit my head, I have happy amnesia.  I forget what really makes me happy... please define happy. Is it to feel good? Is it to wake up with energy? Is it to look good? To be able to sleep in? To not have to BE somewhere WITH someone (s)? To be successful? To have good friends? To laugh? To love? To fight and make up? To Forgive? To Forgive myself? To Let Go...?

Here's the thing.  Happiness is a little bit of each of these things.. and a kazilllion more... all rolled into one big challenge.  Did I lose the War? No... but I am a few behind in the battle logs... time to figure it out.  If you were asked if you know a Happy person, could you tell me? And What is it that makes them so...

Glee is on ... it makes me laugh... I guess it makes me Happy:)

It's funny, I don't think anyone is reading my blog.  It doesn't matter... I am, and I do matter.. go Mel go...

see you tomorrow on Love day:) lol

xo

 

Weekend What To Do's

My kids are with their Dad this weekend... it's always such a mixed time for me. They leave a void in my space when they aren't here, I came home last night to a dark, quiet house... well the crazy animals were waiting for me, but only to let them out... Molly, our two year old Chocolate Lab, wags her bum like I am the most fabulous person in the world. I would let it go to my head, but she does it for everyone. She is just that good, She's a lesson in Happiness every day. Charlie, our one year old cat, is something to behold. She talks to us. Mostly to tell us off, but she is some kind of wonderful. She's teaching me to love cats. Now that's impressive. I spent most of my life thinking that they were sneaky, impersonal, cranky beings. Not so. Charlie makes me laugh out loud at least once a day.
So where I was going with this... I have time today. And I am going to use my new ex-ray eyes, and my pretty baby Nikon, and the sunshine outside, and try to get to know my eyes and my camera... and try to fill the void for a while. Of course later, our crazy friends are coming over, and well that will be a story for another day. :)

So here I am... on the wide open, internet, feeling neurotic over asking my friends on facebook if they would follow me if I published my blog. Who am I kidding? Like it is supposed to hinge on that? Am I that insecure? Perhaps... but I am here anyways. Oh Go Mel Go!

So I got my eyes fixed. Finally. Only 25+ years of coke bottle goggles. Seriously, since grade two I have been reaching for those suckers to help me get through the day. Need to see the alarm clock. Pick them up. Need to make it to the bathroom in the night sans a dented shin bone en route... pick em up. I even needed those friggin ant burners to pluck my eyebrows ... and according to my new ex-ray vision, I was doing a crappy job of it!! I had the opportunity once before, when my dear parents gave me some cash flow, only to be spent on something fabulous like... well it must have been great, and well thought out.. ya, you're getting my drift.

So anyhow, I have been able to see for exactly 52 hours. (ok, the first 8 don't count because they were burning like hellfire and I was pretty sure that they put battery acid in there instead of "cooling drops")... but since then. WOWZA. Hell-lo world. I decided that since my eyes were finally open, I would take a chance and start this blog.

Since I have so much to be grateful for, I need to say thanks to John, who gifted me the eye zapping for Christmas. At times I was a wee bit ungrateful :

sidebar: Mel: Please tell me how exactly getting my eyes burnt in half, lazered like buzz light year and slapped back together like an egg over easy is a gift? John: Too bad Mel, deal with it. Mel: Nice, and all I wanted was a damn Mac.

ok... a wee bit doesn't touch it... he gave me clear, beautiful sight. How do I say thank you for that? It's simple. From the bottom of my heart, Thank You. I will be forever grateful.

I just need to ask... have those cob webs always been there? And how is it I can spot a sray eyebrow from a different zip code.. ??? Gotta go... I just spotted my newest favorite flavor of red wine... Cawara yum.